I came to an interesting realisation today.  I've been obsessively "working" in Second Life for the past year and a half.  When I first signed up and I first started, I went exploring.  Sure, I spent a few hours uploading textures and marveling at the fact I could create stuff.  But I explored, went places, hung out a few times.

I even went shopping!  Sometime around October of 2004, that all changed.  Because I got into the skin-making business.  I don't regret it for one moment, as because of that project, I have learned so much about both graphics work, texturing, and 3d building.  However, ever since, I've been compulsively going and going and going.  My shop is top priority, new products for people is top priority, being a helplful store owner is top priority.

I log in Second Life and I automatically start working on something, be it a new building, a new hairstyle, a new skin, whatever.  Can one become so entwined in the creation process that he forgets how to relax?  I think so.  I don't go anywhere, rarely see anyone, and couldn't tell you what's going on at any relatively big venue.  I used to blame that on the fact that I'm a pretty shy person.  However, now I'm wondering if I have an obsession with "working" when I log onto SL.  I'm afraid that this behaviour may be what's causing my small "burn outs", which is why I tend to disappear for a few weeks every now and then.

I just finished up some cool stuff at my shoppe.  I'm going to spend the next two weeks NOT doing anything related to it.  Nothing.  I swear it!  And I'm going to try and explore SL further.  Be sociable.  Say hi to someone.  Go shopping.  Do something outside of my house in Andromeda.  For once.

Cross my heart.

(then I'll get back to work on those new Entice Skins ;)